The Hardest Part

Do you know what the hardest part about being a 26 year old who has no idea what they want to do? It’s the not knowing what you want to do part. Let’s face it, everything comes back to that. Where should you live? Depends on where you job is. Where is your job? Depends on what you want to do. What do you want to do? Oh yeah… You have no clue.

Maybe I’m just thinking too much. Maybe I’m not thinking about it enough. It’s a tough market out there, and not knowing what you want makes it even tougher. Or perhaps easier as you tend to be more flexible. I personally think it’s harder. Sure, you can do lots of jobs, but they all tend to be rather liner on the same level. Whereas if you know what you want, you can set yourself on an upward liner path towards it.

But perhaps in order to figure out what you want, you need to try lots of things. Or, at least, for some it is probably this way. Others are born knowing. Not sure who is more lucky. I mean, the ones who have always known are never stuck guessing and taking risks. However, those who get to try a bunch of things learn more than they could have imagined.

I’m glad I’ve never known for sure what I’m going to do. I mean, at times I’ve thought I knew. Turns out, I didn’t. Even now, I still think back on past desires and desire them again. Marine biology? Still awesome. I would love to be a marine biologist. Archeology? Still sweet. I would love to dig in the dirt all day. Teach? Still incredible. I would love to teach children in a reformed setting (i.e. not how schools are currently being run in the US). Be a princess? Does any girl ever outgrow this one? The only problem is, I don’t know that any of these have a strong enough pull on me to actually want to do them forever. Well, except for being a princess, but let’s face it. That’ll never happen.

So for now, I wait. I wonder. I pray. I seek advice. I continue learning. That’s the only way I’ll end up where I need to be doing what I was made to do. When I learn it, I know my journey was well worth it and that it made me into a better person.